The nitty gritty of pregnancy

I love seeing a pregnant woman. I have thoughts of sweet baby kicks, cute little baby bump, and a perfect little snuggily baby during nap time. Let's be honest though...It's not all sugar and everything nice...

heartburn sore hips runny nose gag reflex love handles weekly weigh-ins gas bloating body odor fatigue...nice way to say DEAD TIRED

Those are all problems with pregnancy but this time for me...the worst is that I can't kiss Brandon. Something about a kiss on the lips makes me gag. I feel so badly for him and I hope he can hang in with me for the next 3 weeks or so. He has been great so far. Even though he's working and going to school he some how finds the energy to get up at 5, work all day, go to school, and still pick up all the pieces when he gets home at 8. (By picking up pieces I mean making me eggs!)

A new haircut

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Can I just say...

I have spent so much time in my mommyhood thinking and wondering a few things... 1. Am I good at being a mom? 2. Am I doing this right? 3. Am I missing out, should I be working or going to school instead? Those questions look ridiculous now that I see them! I am the best mom! I love what I do! My babies are happy, healthy, loving and smart. They are mine and I am happy to say so. I am learning that there is no where else I would rather be. Ever since I got pregnant with this baby I feel empowered. Empowered with the strength to be a mommy. I'm a mommy!! ps I'm 9 weeks pregnant! My baby is the size of an olive. YAY!

Guide Us, O Thou Great Jehovah

1. Guide us, O thou great Jehovah, Guide us to the promised land. We are weak, but thou art able; Hold us with thy pow’rful hand. Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit, Feed us till the Savior comes, Feed us till the Savior comes.

2. Open, Jesus, Zion’s fountains; Let her richest blessings come. Let the fiery, cloudy pillar Guard us to this holy home. Great Redeemer, Great Redeemer, Bring, oh, bring the welcome day, Bring, oh, bring the welcome day!

3. When the earth begins to tremble, Bid our fearful thoughts be still; When thy judgments spread destruction, Keep us safe on Zion’s hill, Singing praises, Singing praises, Songs of glory unto thee, Songs of glory unto thee.

Text: William Williams, 1717–1791. First verse trans. by Peter Williams, 1722–1796. Included in the first LDS hymnbook, 1835.

Music: John Hughes, 1873–1932

Exodus 13:21–22

Doctrine and Covenants 45:57

We sang this song at church Sunday and I realized that I love it. I love the music, the words and the meaning. What a special song for me.

Blast from the past

When I was in 5th grade I started band. I played the trumpet and I LOVED it. We would have concerts (Probably playing Hot Cross Buns) with all 4 elementary schools. At the practices I met Jessica, a fellow trumpeter (actually cornet). I went to Ready and she went to Wadsworth. We soon became good friends and I couldn't wait to be in Jr. High Band with her. We were best friends. We were always together. I don't even think we had other friends, just us. Until...I don't even remember what year it was (Either 9th or 10th grade) but I messed everything up. I don't remember exactly what happened but I do that she liked a boy and I didn't. Either way, we fought and that was it for us. I soon realized that I was so wrapped up in myself and friends that I was lost. I had no idea who I was. I had never thought about the future and I never really made my own decisions. I was lucky that my friends made pretty good decisions. So...I had no plans and really bad grades. Losing Jessica taught me a lot. I made a HUGE turn for the better that year. The first thing I did was I got my Patriarchal Blessing. The next thing was I improved my grades and GPA. I soon had a plan. I would go to business school and become a secretary. That fell through so I went into Cosmetology. I was good at it. I even competed in Virginia Beach and won 5th place in the region. Things have changes in the years since. I have always had a plan but the paths often lead me to another plan. I don't know how but Jessica and I started to email a few years ago. Recently she has moved closer so I am excited to see her again. What is funny is that the petty things that happened aren't a big deal at all. I feel like we have always been friends even though we haven't been for the last 10 or 12 years. I heard this song and even though I'm not find of Miley Cyrus...I love the words...

It's the Climb I can almost see it, that dream I'm dreaming but, there's a voice inside my head saying, you'll never reach it. Every step I'm taking, every move I make feels lost with no direction, my faith is shaking, But I, I gotta keep trying. I gotta keep my head held high There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle And sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. It ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about whats waiting on the other side. It's the climb. The struggles I'm facing, The chances I'm taking, Sometimes might knock me down But no I'm not breaking. I may not know it But these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, Yeah, just gotta keep going. And I, I got be strong. Gotta keep on pushing on, cuz There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle. Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about whats waitin on the other side. Its the climb. Keep on moving, Keep climbing, Keep the faith, babe. It's all about, It's all about the climb. Keep the faith. keep your faith

Stripes and Polka Dots

80's

We took these pictures in July. It was my last shoot before my camera went bonkers. I'm kinda ok with that now. I am excited to try new things and focus more on my kids. I still love photography and will pick it up again when I have the money to get another camera.