Fabric Baby Shoes

I made these today! Aren't they cute! I am excited to alter the pattern to make some for Brinna. As for these...I am just waiting for one of my friends to have a little guy!

Sugar Free Pie?

YES!

Chocolate Cream Cheese Pie

• 1/4 cup cold margarine
• 1 1/2 cup almond flour
• 1 (8 ounce) package light cream cheese, softened
•  3 tablespoons heat-stable granular sugar substitute (Xylitol)
• 1 (8 ounce) container reduced-fat frozen whipped topping, thawed, divided
• 1 1/2 cups cold skim milk
• 1 (1.4 ounce) package instant sugar-free chocolate pudding mix

Directions

1. In a bowl, cut margarine into flour until crumbly. Press into an 11-in. x 7-in. x 2-in. baking dish coated with nonstick cooking spray. Bake at 350 degrees F for 15-18 minutes or until lightly browned. Cool completely.
2. In a mixing bowl, beat cream cheese and sweetener until smooth. Fold in half of the whipped topping. Carefully spread over the crust. In a mixing bowl, combine milk and pudding mix. Beat on low speed for 2 minutes. Let stand for 2-3 minutes. Spread over the cream cheese. Top with the remaining whipped topping.                

The best kept secret

Depression.
It is real.
A lot of people suffer from it.
I suffer from it.
I just want to sleep.
When I wake up I want it to be gone.
I feel dark.
Achy.
Tired.
Guilty.
Scared.

Tomorrow I will wake up and be ok. Tomorrow I will be back. Tomorrow I will smile. Tomorrow I will have nothing to hide.

Today I will hide. Today I will cry. Today I will wait for tomorrow.



If you know someone with depression...love them. They are hurting.

It's been a month...

I have not blogged in a month. I think it's mostly because I have been so busy. Busy with what? I will tell you...

 I decided to put Phoenix into ballet and tap dance. Atticus got to dance for the first class but now I take him to the library during dance.

I also opened an etsy shop called TinkiepanDesigns to sell my hats and flowers.

We also got our family pictures for Christmas. They turned out so cute but I still have to get them from my friend.

The biggest thing that has been going on is that we did the HCG diet. Everything went well. In 2 weeks I lost 13 lbs and Brandon lost 18 in 3 weeks. It is a really hard diet and it's really hard to keep the weight off. I am having a struggle now as to what to do next. Tomorrow I will start an exercise program (the elliptical and pilates). Here is a pizza with a carb free crust.

I have been spending a lot of time with my wonderful friend Jennie and took her family pictures. I love how the pics turned out.

We got back yesterday from spending the Thanksgiving break with Brandon's family. It was such a nice time that I hated coming home. I decided to perk up and put up the Christmas tree with the kids. We played Christmas music.

I love how the tree turned out. Especially the bottom. I can't wait for homemade ornaments!!

So that is what we've been up to!

Poor Baby!

Today I went over to a friend's house to visit. As soon as we got there Nix asked for a blanket. I covered her and soon she began to cry that she was freezing. She had a fever. She soon started screaming that her head hurt. I decided to take her to the Dr.

Now, 3 hours later...she has swollen tonsils, earaches, asthma, and something wrong with the tendons of her right foot. We are still waiting for chest Xray results to find out if she has pneumonia too. Poor Baby!!

It's who I am...

Last night I was us till midnight with Phoenix until she finally stopped coughing and fell asleep. Then Brandon was awake with a migraine till 1am so I rubbed his neck till the medicine kicked in and he fell asleep. It wasn't long after he fell asleep that Brinna woke up with a fever and was up 3am. As I rocked Brinna I thought about the night and those moments. I thought about my blessings. I thought about my babies.

Righteous women can work miracles.

My thoughts were filled with memories of my mother. I remember her holding me all night when I was sick. I remember her kissing my cheeks and whispering that she loves me in my ear. I remember her smell. I remember the feel of her silk nightgown. I remember.

What will My children remember?

As I ponder these things I realize who I want to be. I realize what is real. I realize what is eternal.

Phoenix Michelle

 Atticus Brandon

 Brinna Kate

Superman

I love this man.